Yahooooooooooooo

As most of you know I got into UTD!!!! I am very excited but also really scared. I hope I can do it. Can I do it?? I am really most worried about working and going to school. My job is tough and requires a lot of my time. Like this week I am working 6 days and actually 7 days straight. How am I going to balance that and classes? I am going to only go this Fall for school part time just to see what its like. But oh man I am scared. I'm already worried about classes and all the new rooms to find(I hate that part) I did look at my financial aid and I got one grant but the rest are student loans. I need to sit down with my advisor aka Lara and make sure I should accept the loans. Orientation is the 13th of august. I may have to take some placement tests too.....yikes. Ok ok ok breathe sorry I just needed to freak out on my blog before I go to sleep. If I don't get it all out on here I ll be thinking alllllll night,

Things are looking up

I found out tonight that I got an A in my summer class. I am very proud of myself honestly. I wanted to drop the class but couldn't. I worked hard and studied hard. Wow I never thought I would get an A. :) So my GPA was a 3.0 this should help it go up...Yay I have 33 credit hours and hopefully any day now I will hear from UTD. My transcripts are still incomplete but UTD said that it wont effect my progress with my application. I just need to send in my new transcripts with this new class on it. Hooray. Its a good day today.

Mush

My brain has turned into mush. I will never take an online summer class and work full time again. I am up til 3 most nights finishing homework. Plus work has been crazy because its summer and everyone is at the mall. My sis has her old roommate visiting for the next 2 weeks. It will be good for her cause she gets 2 weeks off too. I am just bored but I don't want to start more homework. Debating about seeing a movie, but it would be myself and I hate that so probably not. Looked at my UTD status and it says I have an incomplete transcript. Don't know what the deal is. Well that's my life in a nutshell lol

Birthday Time

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIZZY!!!!!

and a much belated birthday to the big guy :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAVIN!!!!!!!

Stupid Men

Damn it to hell LOL Stupid Fedex man is still flirting with me. Tell him to stop:( Well don't cause hes cute but do because hes a player. He claims that he is NOT married and hes taken but not taken. I didn't ask him one of the other girls did. But its crazy. Today he came in to pick up the stuff that was going out and he couldn't help pick on me hahaaa. It was me and one associate behind the counter and another girl Brittany out in front of the counter folding.

He said to Brittany," This all that's going out?"
She said yeah or something agreeable.
He turned to Brittany and said "well have a great weekend"
turned to the other associate"have a great weekend"
Turned to leave and then looked back at me
I said " don't you say anything to me"
and I said something like I was hurt or something and I cried at night over it hahahaaa
He said" You couldn't of cried as much as I have"

LOL Loser huh? I know I was beet red. I could feel it. He said to me finally have a great weekend and left. I don't know its weird. Ok that's all I have for today. I am so sad that I can not be at Gavin's birthday party tomorrow. I am soooo sorry stacy :(

Confession

I hope nobody will think me a bad person for my honesty. Have any of you ever not been happy for someone when you know you should be happy for them? Its like that with my mom. I mean shes all happy and in love. She has a whole new life that includes a new apartment, a car, a bf, no pets,lots of places to travel to, a new way of living and all that. Well Lara lately has felt like maybe something is wrong with her. Like she really isn't that happy and my mom wont get out of it for the sake of just being with someone. I on the otherside don't care. In fact sadly I would be ok if she was unhappy. How horrible am I ? But wait here me out before you yell at me. My mom is not herself with rocky, She is his little lap dog. What he wants he always gets. I really don't blame her boyfriend its my mom that should say no sometimes. I think he uses it towards his advantage but do I think hes evil...No. I am happy for her that she is happy. I just am also and probably with be for awhile bitter. All my life she was sheltered therefore we are sheltered. I just feel like if she wanted this wonderful life she didn't have to wait to be rescued by a man. She even said tonight how great it is now she can actually save money. Yes that's because he is paying for everything. We as in Lara and I have never had that. Here I am busting my own tail to have an apartment a car and even go to school. No man here. The last thing is that she can not do anything with Lara and I on Sundays. Its her and her bf's day. But once just once I wish she would say hey Jenny I know you never have weekends off so we can't do a Saturday get together but maybe one sunday we can. It seems I work less Sundays then Saturdays. My bday is on a Sunday and I am not even going to mention it to my mom. I am sure I will just plan around it like I did for mothers day and she will say oh yeah it all worked out. I love my mom and I know I am very grateful to have her in my life. I just wish things were better. I don't think they can be this is her and unless God forbid(honestly I mean it) her bf leaves her this is how her life will be. I just really love her and want to spend more time with her. We meet for dinner for about an hour and then she has to leave cause its a weekday. We talk but I don't know its just hard. Sorry we all had dinner tonight and so its on my mind. I just wish I could move on from this and its just getting harder. I want to no longer "act" like I am happy for her. I really want to be happy for her. I need to put the past in the past and focus on my future. Thanks for listening :)

sad news

Not really lol Mr. Fed ex has a kid :( And a wife, gf, fiance I don't know who she was but she came in today while he was picking up. He is still sweet but damn hahahaa His daughter was cute too and he was a proud papa. So no more mr.fedex for me....now ups? dhl? JK